Waiting to Receive and Grow Fruit
I felt Him last night, laying on my bed. “O Jesus, I missed you.” I sighed. “Separation is necessary to cultivate fruit. As you wait on me and rest in my love, the fruit grows sweeter.” He put His hand on my belly. “Yes, worship from here.” He confirmed. “I’m so excited that you’re here. My whole being is bubbling!” He caressed my body. I turned to Him. We kissed. I hugged Him and breathed in deeply. He kissed the front of my neck while I leaned my head back, enjoying His kisses. “O I missed you Jesus.” He put His finger under my chin and locked His eyes with mine. “I love you.” I whispered, taking His hand and bringing it to my lips to kiss Him there tenderly. We both burst in flames, I was orange and He was blue. “Let me light up your heart with passion, my love. A passion that will light up your path and your way to my heart.”
“Breathe life into my heart.” I asked, putting my heart in His hand. It was still purple but with some clear light yellow flames on top. I breathed in and out deeply. “I want more of you Jesus. Please be the life in me. Enlarge my heart to receive you in all fullness. Cause me to be fully surrendered to you.” “Do you know how you lay down your life?” He asked. “When you put everything else aside to live for me, to come to me, to search for me. When you lay down for me, waiting to receive, not trying to do anything in your own strength.” ”Help me to lay down my life for you Jesus.” I pleaded. We held hands.
Then I saw my heart floating on a pedestal between us. I breathed in and out deeply again. “Please Jesus fix my heart, change my heart. Make it like yours. Blow upon my heart and set it on fire.” He blew on my heart. White flames went round it in a circular motion. “I want you to live in me in all fullness Jesus. Please change me. Make me like you, a laid down lover. Jesus I want to lay down with you.” The Lord brought me to John 10:1-18 and Zephaniah 3:13: “The remnant of Israel shall not do iniquity, nor speak lies; neither shall a deceitful tongue be found in their mouth: for they shall feed and lie down, and none shall make them afraid.” I saw myself feeding on his mouth as we lay down together and understood that the tree of life is as much a horizontal as a vertical tree.