Touching My Mouth
“What do you want me doing, saying and thinking today?” I asked the Lord as I sat in bed with my Bible open. “Sshh.” I heard Him say as I saw His face in front of me. “I just want to be here with you. You are my consolation, my comfort, my bride. Just be with me. You are my joy, my peace in the midst of the storm. Let us rest together in love, joy and peace. Come. Rest in me as I wish to rest in you.”
I read Psalm 1:3: ”And he shall be like a tree planted by the rivers of water, that bringeth forth his fruit in his season; his leaf also shall not wither; and whatsoever he doeth shall prosper.” and a light just popped in my head connecting it to Revelation 22:2: “In the midst of the street of it, and on either side of the river, was there the tree of life, which bare twelve manner of fruits, and yielded her fruit every month: and the leaves of the tree were for the healing of the nations.” “Wow!” I thought in my mind, “I never saw the connection before.” “I make all the connections.” I heard Him say.
“Help me to please you.” I began. ”Sshh. Put your head on my chest. Let us rest in our love.” He kissed me on the forehead and moved my head on His chest. A scene appeared around us. We lay in a hammock under an outside open palm tree hut on a beach with beautiful blue sea and sky, palm trees and white sand. I thought about how the dry land in the beginning was probably more like crystals. I understood how much the Lord likes beaches. “Jesus I love you so much” I said looking into to His face. “I love you with all my heart, my soul, my strength and everything that is within me.” I said slowly thinking about each part of my being when I said these words to Him. We kissed.
I caressed the robes on His chest. “I’ve called you to me.” He said. “I have opened my mouth to you.” We kissed again. “I have called you to myself. You are mine. I will not leave you here. I will take all that is mine to be with me where I am. Do you trust me?” He asked. “I don’t know” I replied. “I hope so. I know that I trust your love for me.” “That is good enough for me. I can move with that. Come let us drink.” I didn’t realize He was drinking too when we joined our mouths. We kissed again. “I love you” I said looking into his eyes. “I know you love me. That’s why I love being with you.” I was about to ask Him to change me again. “Sshh. I hear all your desires. I will answer all of them. Rest in me.” I took a deep breath. “I love you.” I said again. “You are mine and I am yours.” He reassured me. “Rest.” He put my hand on His heart. “Feel how much I love you.” I put my ear and the side of my face on His heart, like a father putting His ear on the womb of a pregnant mother. The fullness of His creative life emanated continually upward and outward from His heart, bubbling with all the fruit of the Spirit. “He is so full of life!” I thought in my mind. I looked up into His face again. He had the biggest smile! We embraced. I was so overcome with His love that I collapsed on His chest after reading Rev 21:6 “And he said unto me, It is done. I am Alpha and Omega, the beginning and the end. I will give unto him that is athirst of the fountain of the water of life freely,” I realized why He is letting me drink so freely from His mouth: because I am so thirsty for Him.
Then I had this overwhelming feeling of His holiness consuming me. The fire of His holiness was burning through His robes. It transformed His whole being, from His heart outwards, into light – then from where our mouths touched, it transformed my body as well. Everything changed. We stood side by side in the air – beings of light, surrounded by bright white light. I understood why He told me when I see Him face to face things will change between us and I will not be able to imagine Him as I do now. The flesh is the man. It enables us to love. When He is flesh, He is able to relate to us. When we are in heaven, we are no longer flesh. Holiness permeates our very beings and relationships. I felt the Lord reassuring and strengthening me with these words as they jumped out at me: ”Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on thee: because he trusteth in thee. Trust ye in the LORD forever: for in the LORD JEHOVAH is everlasting strength:” Isaiah 26:3-4